Friendish

I really don't feel much like sleeping tonight. The air just feels so refreshing and invigorating! I really wish I had some friends that I could go hang out with at this time of night. Yeah, all my friends are lame like that; on school nights they have to do stupid things like "sleeping" and "homework" but seriously why? It's so pointless with a week left of school; hell I thought it was pointless before this point! I need some new friends, or my friends that live in other cities need to move here. I have so many people that enjoy me in Eugene and Grants Passish that I'd much rather hang out with then anybody else here. It gets really annoying when a friend calls you up asking if you want to hang out and then saying "Oh yeah, can you come and pick me up?" And they are prolly the only friend you have that doesn’t drive and lives 5 miles out of town.

Maybe I just need to rethink my friends entirely, not hold on to the ones I have but start hanging out with those kids that skip class to go do drugs and such... that’s a great crowd! I bet they are awake right now smoking some weed or rolling on some X. Like I said great people to hang out with! Well at least I'd be entertained for the night, and if things get really bad I can even drive them to the hospital! Oh man, I see only good things coming from hanging out with these elite few. Who knows maybe after a time they will allow me to join their caste and I can get really messed up on drugs!

I think I'll go to sleep in a little bit. Or maybe I'll just go make a sandwich; I did eat a lot of cake today after all. So the real question is: Sleep or Sandwich? A very deep and powerful question that I believe will take many hours of deep philosophical thought to come to a conclusion. I'll go make a sandwich to get me through all that thought, who knows I may have to sleep on it.

Bored

Did I ever tell you about that time the sky blew up? Yeah, me niether.

Have a Good Day!

This morning while he was getting ready he actually looked in the mirror. Most mornings he would have looked and quickly exited the bathroom. This morning was different though. He was smiling. As he looked at the unknown man smiling back at him he suddenly got an odd feeling deep in his gut. It was nothing like the depression that he dealt with everyday, no, this was something that he welcomed. As he left the bathroom he noticed that he was still smiling, smiling at, well really absolutely nothing. As he thought more and more about this feeling he noticed he was elated above seemingly everything. He enjoyed this. As the day went on he noticed all the little things in the world, the birds joyful little sounds, the vivid colors of the trees and gardens around him, everything seemed so much better then the day before. Even that night he decided to go on a walk, the fresh cool air was crisp in his lungs and invoked a sense of calm that he could not ever place having before. As he changed into him clean warm pajamas the calm feelings remained with him, it was then he knew. As he fell into a deep slumber he knew that in the morning everything would be perfect.

Wow, that was extremely hard for me to write something positive... In the end I almost had him going asleep to his death but in the end I figured it might as well be a true change of pace. It seems so... uneventful of a story to me. I mean all of my writing is bad but this is utter crap!

Random Jolts of Electricity

I have decided that randomness is a sign of higher brain activity. It makes sense too! Just think about it, you have a bunch of random electrical bursts crossing your brain stimulating random thoughts. Higher brain activity, but unfocused activity at that. So sure a random person utilizes more of their mind brain but that does not make them smarter, just more spontaneous. In fact people who have more random stimulation end up doing stupid things without as much contemplation for the consequences.

So what would you rather have, a spontaneous lifestyle, or a much more structured life where you can enjoy single things? Personally I'd like to have the more spontaneous lifestyle. It is so much more entertaining when viewed from the outside. But that’s just it, you get bored so much easier then others that you are constantly in search of new things. I wish to find the balance, the place where I can take up things for a while and ditch them after a few months rather then a few weeks. I wonder if I'll ever get to that point. Maybe when I get back from my trip and don't care so much about money.

Nothing Really

The bloody hand embraces the cup as he takes his last sip before passing into the euphoric trance induced by the drink, seconded by the recent deed that was committed. The blood on the glass make it a slippery wet fish, and after loosing his current sense of will the glass becomes little bits of ice strew all about the bloody floor. He looks down at what just happened and starts laughing, hysterical is his laugh, so hideous that it brings tears to his eyes when he hears himself. Looking as what is on the ground he begins to realize what has happened. More laughter. Any second party viewing this seen would turn away and will the thick vomit back down their thoughts. As he laughs he leans up against the wall. His back slides down the crimson wall revealing the true tan color of the room. As he slides his laughter slowly subsides as the drinks effects plummet him further into the joyful numbness. The room suddenly starts to get darker, no not the room but his vision. Slowly he watches the last few shades of the room fade into black while he finally experiences nothing, something that he will still never know.

The Man You'll Hate to Love

I like being hated.

Now that I think about it the only reason this is true is a form of rebellion. How can you hate someone that doesn't hate you back? How can you hate someone if it's not possible to piss him or her off? Very hard is the answer. It really amuses me when people hate me. They send me ugly e-mails and I just smile and reply back in as kind of a manner as I can. I enjoy it very much. I almost wish I got more hate mail.

I sound like such a horrible person when I think about it, but really the only reason is because I'm not thinking hard enough. Is it not written in the Bible to turn the other cheek? Or perhaps love your enemy?

Hate is such a strong thing, like an A-bomb, if everyone used it there wouldn't be a world left.

Up, Below You All.

Today I figured out my problem.

I am always telling myself that I'm so much better then everyone else. Telling myself that I'm a friggin genius and all of you are idiotic pawns in someone else’s plans. But today I found out how wrong I actually am. I'm no smarter then anyone else around here. I'm really rather average trying to tell myself that I'm not. My ignorance has really just led to an extreme sub-conscious realization that I'm an idiot. Such a realization that I have convinced myself that I am an actual idiot.

Okay now I have two rather large parts of myself conflicting... One, myself, telling me that I'm well above everyone else. And two, my sub-conscious, telling me that I am an idiot. Now as you may think this is an extremely odd situation due to the account that I only have one voice in my head.

So what am I to do? If I continue to convince myself that I'm a genius then in the end I'll just fall into a pile of ignorance and get a rather large truth shock. And if I listen to my sub-conscious self well eventually I'll actually become an idiot. Now the middle ground? Actually accepting my average state of being? That in the end just puts me in a place that will never strive for anything and get a desk job that doesn't go anywhere.

Who am I?

Lefty

It seems like every post I make nowadays is apologizing for not posting as much as I used to.

Anywho life is interesting not much of great importance going on... Well actually if I really wanted I could make a few very interesting and humorous posts concerning the complete and utter lack of things that are going on.

Yesterday I ate 10 pounds of pizza... that was pretty cool, and it wasn't that bad, infact I want more pizza right now.

I used an umbrella today, they are really nifty, I don't see why more people don't use them.

Anywho thats enough of my completely and utterly boring aspects of my life.

Buh-bye.