Escapism

Escapism is a very correct word for what I want to do, and quiet honestly fits the bill perfect for the drinking I do almost every night. But my activities have stopped fitting the bill, I'm not satisfied with them and I want to escape deeper. I want to lose all of my friends at times just say "fuck you" and see if they ever bother with me again. Basicaly I want to see if they are real friends.

But it's not just them, I immensly dislike where I am. Why for? I don't know I say I haven't found a better place than Ashland to be, but when I'm here I'm almost miserable, and more than half an alcoholic.

Where do I want to go? I don't know. I never know.

This is all about me. I know only one person is going to read this. Perhaps this is a call out, but you already know all of this.

To anybody else, I'm tired.

P.S. Fuck the spellcheck.