2009-10-27

Go Big or Go Home...

There are a lot of things that I want to do in my life, and for some reason I feel like I have to do them all right now. Perhaps this is a healthy feeling for someone my age. Maybe this would be closer to someone going through a midlife crisis realizing that there is only so much left to do. Honestly I couldn't tell you. I'm still 22 and have done a lot for even that age. The problem is it never feels like enough. So what I've been to 30some countries, there are still well over 100 that I haven't been to! I've rode a motorcycle across the USA and gotten in two near death crashes! So? There are a lot of countries I haven't rode across! Nothing is good enough for me. What I do seems to be alright and unimpressive.

Go big or go home... And here I am, at home. I feel like I am setting the bar for the average person, and if I can't do better than that then why do I even bother?

I feel this is all very vain, but I also feel this is how my mind works. The only American part of my thinking; Go big or go Home.

2009-10-12

Sightless Sounds

Everything feels kinda weird all of a sudden. Like something is going on and I should know what it is (because I am part of it) yet I have no idea what it is. It's everywhere around me, I just can't see it.

Today I heard something very loud. Completely silent, but I could hear it, and it was painful. Hasn't been the first time I've heard that deafening silence.

There is something very important going on, something very large. You may not be able to perceive it, but it is there and when it's your time it will be much too late.